Black Shadow

2007-05-20T02:15:00.001-07:00

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2006-05-31T22:36:00.000-07:00

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2006-05-25T07:50:00.000-07:00

haiz...these past few days have been like so surreal, everything like passes in a flash, been reaching homee tired and all, not wanting to do anything at all, except to lie on my comfy bed and zzz..zzzz......then my com msn messenger also not working exactly fine also, which is like uber irritating, cuz i have to use my dad's laptop...so sian...wednesday was like such a weird and funny day lo, we had a change in GP lessons, which cut our PE lesson by like 1/3 and was like super *censored* up, we just heck cared and brought our drinks to class, pearls rock during GP lessons. period. after that got odac GM lo, where there was major re-elections going on, got changed from me original post of PTI to air chief, yes, i know some people are happy =) no more sick PT rite, hahahaha, never mind, found out that wilson and xiaoyun have an equally sick mind too =) so yea, hahaha!!!!! after that went down to climbasia, where the girls decided to buy their shoes, mann, they sure took their time, 1 hr plus lo, that's nuts la, considering that i took like only 5 mins to get mine? hahaha, girls will be girls, whoops =p

VJ SOCCER BOIS RAWKS!!!! 3 GOALS SCORED IN UNDER 5 MINS, HOW PRO IS THAT!!!! WHY ARE WE SO PROOOO...WE ALSO DUNNO....YOU CAN SUCK MY TOE....YOU *UGLY ****HOLE*!!!!!!!!

oh mann....its her again, just can't stop thinking about her....plus she is avoiding me somemore, i've almost given up hope on starting a conversation, is this going to continue? i can't suffer like this for much longer, been pushing myself to my limits, trying to forget her but apparently it ain't been working...hmm..been wondering, what's the barrier in between us? does she think that we are maybe not equal? arrrgh...pumpfest tomorrow, better go sleep, mann....how i wish she would be there tomorrow...

2006-05-21T08:09:00.000-07:00

yawn, these past few days have been so tiring....hmm....let's see, there was odac pt on friday and i reached home at like 9+ tired and all, haha though its my own doing, then there was saturday, that was a looooooooong day, woke up at 6.30, went to school to do ushering for PD5, which is so boring, i was supposed to sweep the floor first but the cleaners did their job, then xiaoyun, eugene, xinhui and me just stood outside the admin office waiting for the cars of the PD5 guests to come, but totally got no business at all so we ended up ushering the VIP wannabes, yay, there are so many purebloods in this batch, hopefully most of them get in =) after that, i had my level 2, yay, it rocks mann, we climbed like from 9.45 to 6.45? hahahahaha, it so totally rocks la oh mann...dynamic belay is like so FUN, HAHAHAHAHA its like bungy jumping with the floor closer to you, hahahahahaha, sorri aaron and nazri for dragging you all into the wall =) then again, i want to do dynamic belay again =) and yay, we passed the course, hehehehe, after that i ponned the harmoc ushering duty that i was supposed to do to join my cuz's bbq, lotsa her tj fren's were there, but amazingly, they recognised me and i like totally didn't know them at all lo, so yea, hahahahaha

big walk today was fun, posed for like dozens for shots la, started off quite high, but at the end of 10 k people all like so sian liao la, was also quite sian myself also, too bad we didn't start jogging =)

oh mann, this is weird, who am i kidding, somehow i dun think that i am able to forget her in the short time, can't help wondering when we can start talking normally again...does she still think that i am joking? how can i convince her?

2006-05-18T07:56:00.000-07:00

gosh, these past few days have been quite confusing, i'm at quite a loss, mann, have not realli sorted out the things for the odac PT tomorrow, not realli planned out what to do yet, some people are going to support the VJ bball game, hmmm....maybe can make them run to toa payoh =) but then again, that's only a thought....then there's the issue of having a replacement of huay shan, dunno who to take her place, must be someone sick enough, hahahaahah, like liwen liddat, hahahhaaha, but she is QM lo, so cannot be, hmm....need to think about this, maybe instead of choosing someone who is so sick, maybe someone who can motivate others should be chosen, hmm.....lotsa hmmsss....

mann, been sleeping really late for the past few days, climbing and pw are not a good mix, hahahahaha, finally can sleep at 11 tonite, so happy!!!!!!!!!

arrrrrgh, can't help but relate about her again, today was preety confusing, i dunno what to do when i see her, dunno whether to talk to her, or do i avoid her....

SENTIMENTAL FAVORITE
(Owsley, Trevor Morgan)

Waiting for someone to finish the story
Of a heart that's been broken and thrown on the floor
Picking up pieces to put back together
Hoping it beats like before

It's all between you
And it's all between me
But in-between the lines what could it mean
When you say what you mean
Do ya mean what ya say
Am I the sentimental favorite of the day?

I am the coat that you keep in your closet
That you pull up around you whenever it's cold
It's not the weather that keeps us together
It's the warmth of my hand that you hold

(Tell me baby what you see is it me?)
Are you looking for tenderness?
(Said the sentimental favorite of the day)
Please be sincere, my dear, with me
Can I solve your mystery?

(c) 1997 Owsley Music/Milene Music (ASCAP)

2006-05-16T08:44:00.000-07:00

VJ choir rocks. period. the rest you have to hear it for urself. my blog ain't good enuf to describe it, hahahahahaha

huayshan left ODAC today, that's bad, cuz now we're one member short, then we're also lacking in a female PPTI, which is not good, so we have to decide whom that reponsibility shall fall unto at tomorrow's GM, haiz....well, guess that's life for you...

nothing much to say, still raving from SOV, hahahahahahaahahahaha, songs still ringing in my ear, tired mann, think i'll go sleep

2006-05-14T07:06:00.000-07:00

yay, the theme the past week has been: "divided loyalties", yep, dunno what side to take for everything, from RCC to ODAC, to the TJ vs VJ tennis match, haiz, a bit the caught in between. haha, afterall, it is difficult to support VJ if ur cousin is the captain of the TJ tennis team, hahahahahaha.....dunno whether to go for climbing or odac nowadays, but its always best if i get to go for both, but then again, when they clash, i dunno what to do, the horrible thought of quitting RCC or ODAC crossed my mind more than once, and i dun even wanna go there, so yea, haiz....let's just wait and see what happens lo

t'was another sinful weekend again, with me eating, sleeping, playing as usual, not doing anything else and studying at the minimal level, think that i'd better buck up or i might just like die for the midyrs which are like coming soon to a jc near you. cycled instead of studying for my SPA tomorrow, which i am like so dead for, hence i decided to turn back after bedok resevoir. mann, it was so fun chionging my bike all round the entire dirt track, gravel realli wears you out, hmm....oh yayaya maybe i should start a meter to count how many times i have been almost been banged down by the car,hahaha, i can add like 4 to the meter tonite, oops and sorri to the guy in black shirt cycling at eunos there, didn't mean to make you crash into the tree, if u're seeing this, so sorry =)

oh yea, choir concert is on next week i think....hmm...i think, yea, hahahaha, hmmm...so sian, dunno what to do for PT next week if there is one at all, dunno what to let them do lehz, cannot be too killing, at the same time cannot be too slack, then dunno what games to play also, must be unisexual, so that rules out soccer, and all those other sports that require tackling, hahahaha, jkjkjkjk, maybe play floorball next week, we'll see

2006-05-10T09:40:00.000-07:00

well, long time since i last posted...fell sick a couple of days ago, on sunday, mann...almost died la, hmm...let's see, i vomited twice, had full blown rashes, fever, and let's not forget the allergic reaction that almost blocked my airways entirely....yep, nice rite, hahahahaha, sorri for the graphic description....had SPA the next day and i slept like only 1.5 hrs that entire night? so i was so totally groggy the next morning that i dropped my cup as i was brushing my teeth, oh mann..my parents then told me not to go to school nad i did, the doc gave me 2 days of much needed MC, yay!!!!

today was quite hectic, had lessons, then an ODAC meeting, then RCC interview, then climbasia, oh mann, i think that i screwed up my RCC exco interview, maybe i ain't cut out to be a VP, maybe a training officer suits me more =) but aniwaez, even if i dun get in, climbing still rocks =) so yea hmmm...looking at all the monsters at climbasia, we can't help but wonder when can we become like them, hanging on one hand and turning round to inquire about the next tile, nice, hahahahahahah

oh no, tomorrow got PT, i bet that's what mani PIs are thinking, well it ain't so bad, well, at least not as bad as welcome PT that's for sure =) actually dun realli have a concrete plan of what we are going to do tomorro, but it should have a 4.8km run, followed by 20 pushups and situps? then we shall go climb the school wall =) so fun rite, haha

quite pissed with technology these few days, keeps screwing up on me, like yest when i couldn't access any of the blogs at all, including this blog, then today my messenger screwed up, can't even log in or start, so sianz, say got some invalid link to a .DLL file blah blah blah, tried fixing it but seems that kicking the com ain't helping, hahahaahahahaha so sian

oh yea, had 2.4 todae, got 9.50 quite happy =) so congrats to all the straight As people =) and let's all give encouragement to those who didn't do as well as they expected =) *clap clap*

aye, can't help but feel that this blog is a bit the public lo, maybe should have another blog where less people can read lo, or rather maybe only me myself can read, hahahahaha, just thinking, just thinking

arrrrrgh, was looking through the OLC photos, oh mannn..i miss OLC, i miss kota, i miss a lot of things....when we were all together as whirlwind...haiz....and yes, i miss the stars, when we all laid down to watch them, june OT will be filled with similar memories i hope =)

i'm looking at young kids and i can't help but envy them, being naive and all, mann...can't help but think of nathan, hahahaha, hope that he can come to singapore at the end of the year, he was so saddd la, when we left, crying and all, i feel like crying too =( yay, if he comes then we can play superman again!!! not to mention even up the soccer scores, hahahahahaha

2006-05-06T22:45:00.000-07:00

was eating instant noodles last night and couldn't help thinking of whirlwind...hmm...the "good" time that we spent together...where all of us crouched by the gas burner, hoping that the flame wun go out and struggling to eat the instant noodles, mann...come to think of it, it was the best time of OLC..hahahahaha =)

felt so sinful these past few days, non-stop eating of junk food, playing of the com to the max, going out, not studying, blah blah blah, i'd better stop and turn things around

woohoo...chiam see tong won again! no offence to diehard PAP supporters but potong pasir residents dun realli need all that money, we're content so yea =) good luck sitoh, try again next election, maybe offer more abalone and sharks fin soup, hahahahaha, just joking =)

feel like setting up another blog to record down my thoughts, but just thinking

2006-05-06T07:22:00.000-07:00

gonna recount the two dreams that i had about her, might as well, before i wipe them from my head...my first dream was a bit weird, like seriously, it was at esplanade at night, with the city lights in the background...i dreamt that she was having a candlelight dinner with someone, but its was surely not me, i was looking from afar in the dream...hmm...guess that the dream ended there, can't say for sure why though...second dream amazingly occured after i drank lots of coffee and still fell asleep, she was smiling and laughing a lot in that dream...haiz...

can't stop thinking about her these few days, dunno why though but its really distracting oh mann....i'm trying to forget her now, deleted all my smses in my phone, but hesitating to delete the number and msn add....but what the heck, as some coach in the movie i watched last night said, "set your priorities straight, and put the rest aside", that's what i'm gonna do. suddenly can't help feeling what nicole said was right (her being the genius and all), that there are more important things in life right now and that we should not be focusing on relationships...yep, so goodbye...oh yea, and thanks nicole for all the help and advice you've given me you brinjal =)

well, PW's a bore, quite difficult to think of ideas, brainstormed at airport today with the grp...saw a lot of veejay people at Macs, studying and all, some of the odac guys too....before the manager chased them away...i think he was pmsing today...cuz there were a ton of empty seats so yea, i'll stop the bitching here. finally embarked on the idea of promoting the tradition of having a vegan diet into society in general, where everyone becomes vegans, yay!!! so boohoo to all those people who do not like to eat vegetables, we're gonna survey you so dun run away if we need to enlist your help =) went upstairs to study with the odac guys after the discussion at Macs, saw them studying on the floor, wilsonator, dennis, alvin and xiaoyun sitting in the corner, haha, no offence but maybe she was avoiding alvin, hmm....hahahahaha,talked a lot of crap after that at BK, where i ate my second lunch of trans fats and calories, talked about the coming econs test, hahhahaa, alvin finally realised how much he'd been missing, good luck alvin =)

hmm...i'm wondering about religion these days....wondering about monoatheism....people who are strongly religious might want to stop reading here. why must there be absolutes in this world? is there all but one right and the rest wrong? must everything be divided into black and white, is there no room for the grey? i'm gonna recount an analogy that my dad heard from a monk, that all religions are like the fingers on our hands, at the extremities they are far apart, but as you delve deeper, they all come together.
is there a possibility that humans are meant to do evil and not good? afterall, compassion is almost non-existent in the natural world, where self-preservation is the main objective...hmm...then in that case how come doing good make us feel good? is that supposed to be a natural instinct? hmm....

oh mann...forgot where i placed my rock climbing exco application forms....oh mann...george just called me to fill in and hand it in on mon....nvm, i'll just fill in another one lo....think that i am going to try for VP, hahaha, though i originally was thinking of being training officer the first place, but we'll see how it goes =) oh yea, we'll all train hard for boulderactive and the osim triathlon =)

2006-04-30T07:55:00.000-07:00

faith has carried me this far, i'll let fate bring me further, oh mann, why does my mouth remain shut, even as opportunities arise...is she taunting me to bring it further or am i just plain imagining things? arrrgh...i feel at such a loss...don't know what to do now....
been wondering what would have happened if twc was never used, or that i told her the truth that day, or what if that teacher didn't show the slide....maybe it never could have come to this, maybe we would still be talking normally....but i realised life's not about ifs or probable outcomes, afterall, it ain't all bout econs, its the uncertainity that makes it worth living =)
saw her at the bus stop that day...i stood behind the advertisment board outta sight till her bus came...haiz...another opportunity lost

watched the chinese show "turn left, turn right" last nite, felt quite touched by the whole thing, by how fate played with them, bringing them so close, yet not letting them see one another..haiz...guess its better that way, afterall ignorance is bliss

well, night cycling was fun, other than a few close calls, everyone was unharmed, physically that is hahahaha!!! orchard road in the morning is so freaking quiet, oni a couple of taxis, who frantically beeped at me as i dashed across the traffic intersection =p had a humongous "cup" of sugar cane juice at chomp chomp, $2.50!!!! oh mann....its was huge, the auntie actually gave me two straws la, but i finished it all by meself *oink oink* i'm such a pig!!!

hmmm....after that we went to newton circus where we ate some satay and stuff...was quite sleepy by then cuz we sorta lost the way hahahaha after all we are all easterners. anywaez, after we waited for cher li to finish his food which took amazingly long to finish we went to lau pa sat!!!! reached at round 3 am? oni a dessert stall and dim sum stall was open...was so freaking tired that i didn't realli eat anything,wanted to play zhong ji mi ma with a dropped siew mai, but it proven too sick, even by the standards of ODAC people hahahahahaahaha, awww mann, can't load the photo yet, sianz
then we went back to east coast where we just sat around at bedok jetty sleeping, talking cock, the seniors and the energetic people were singing!!! we waited for the sun rise, too bad it was not a nice one though, but it was nice enough, a sun rise always gives you time to think about stuff =)

2006-04-29T01:46:00.000-07:00

finally found out what i like in her, not her physical appearance, but her amazing will, i'd say that she is stronger than most people in that aspect, where most people would buckle and collapse, she stills drives on, refusing help and god help me, i like that =)

first words with her for almost a week, felt so on high today...let this feeling never cease

night cycling tonite, tataz, hopefully nothing will happen to all of us =x

2006-04-28T06:16:00.000-07:00

True friends trust each other with their deepest darkest secrets, "To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved" - George Macdonald.
Friends who understand one another will not be curious to dig up stuff about one another to be used as "blackmail" and taunts, no offence, but i really dislike those *censored*ers yeppz, at least that's what i think, thank ye all who have not asked me, i appreciate it

I want to jump and scream at times, to hold her hand and ask her to stop all this...all this pretence and ignorance is really getting to us...where we glance at one another and look away...can't stand this mental torture any longer...
"Why why why why why?" i keep asking myself, whenever i see her, millions of whys...

Aniwaez, today odac went to do SK again, mostly odac alone, sc did quite a good job considering we left halfway to arrange the rest of the thousand plus chairs, three cheers for SC! woohoo....CT did quite well also, though only a few were present...
what a day, lessons, tennis, rock-climbing, moving chairs, running 8km and doing 200 squats, woohoo, and we did it oh yea oh yea

2006-04-26T08:42:00.000-07:00

aye, how come people are so interested about gossip? everywhere i go its the same, xcept probably in vs, where we were carefree from all this verbal evil that stained the world around us, haha, sounds so weird rite...plus all you S34 people out there, you all should learn to read properly *shakes head*

well, i'm glad that she is smiling, even though its not at me but its fine with me i guess...but can't we even talk normally? i'm tasting the consequences of the "leap of faith" and its slowly killing me...so i really really have to stop it where it is or i can't even concentrate on the simplest of things...

ponned my first lecture since i got into veejay, cuz we were late playing bridge, sources confirmed that the lecture was full of crap aniwae, so no deadweight loss, haha

yay! today we visited BMT, the bus was so freaking empty, the entire bus had just 6 S34 people in it, yup, the rest all pang sehed us, which i personally find is quite *censored* irresponsible, the teacher was quite *censored* pissed, but yea, haha

aye, being a commando means thinking less, haha, according to maj something, haha, the fitter you are does it mean that you think less??? aniwaez, army rations taste good!!!! no link, but what the heck

2006-04-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

"I hold it true, whate'er befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'Tis better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all" - Alfred Tennyson

well, ain't got much to say, alfred above says it all...we should not forget any experiences that we have i guess...they just mould us to become what we are....hmm...at least i still look forward to going to sch other than rockclimbing and odac and animal welfare =)

project work is one of the worst things that MOE can come up with, seriously, it taps all the creative cells from your brain and leaves you as a bored pile of dust, yep you heard me all rite...so here's a bow of respect to those J2s who managed to live through it!

how come my butt is so heavy? i just can't manage a sit start lar...liddat comp (if i make it into one) sure die one lar, starting tile fall off i can realli go jump down....must train my grip...gambadeh!!!!!!

2006-04-18T08:02:00.000-07:00

this is so darn depressing, things ain't always going according to plan...worse is now that i don't even have a plan...nothing to say right now, i just feel sad, bored and depressed...

2006-04-14T06:40:00.000-07:00

finally drawing away from her, don't know how i managed it though but i did it yea, so congrats to myself....decisions are so much easier to make now, i feel almost refreshed!!!

INTIMIDATE AND DOMINATE, AQUILA'S NUMBER 1!!! haha, aquila won, men's, women's and overall champs, so congrats to all aquilan's! kena owned during tug-of-war, haha, somehow i think the PE teachers were helping the VIP, hmmm....cuz we were literally dragged along the field, haha sad rite =(
the mascots were so darn funni, with the horny ursa bear, the disgusting pegasus horse and violent aquila mascot, hahahahaha

went to madi grah yest, not quite the gay festival that people expected, it was so FUN, hahahahaha! 3 CHEERS TO ALL THE TJ PEOPLE!!!!! saw quite a few of the 28 people, was nice seeing them again and all the people in tj, especially the "retro" people, *cough cough* =) pang-sehed S34 class dinner for madi grah (sorri guys, haha), but simply can't miss this opp to go back to tj, hehe

2006-04-11T06:22:00.001-07:00

well, guess i have to stop thinking about her, because she looks beautiful, haha, sheesh but yea...been doing my best to pull away from her, including giving her the cold shoulder...feels terrible, can't help giving her occassional glance during lectures, gotta stop doing that...at least we're not in the same CCA, mann, i'd fall off the wall, haha

nothing much to say realli, crapped out a PI last nite, which was the only thing i did, doubt that it fufilled any of the requirements, can't believe that i left out how to maintain the momentum...must be going nuts

yay, today was so slack, went home early for PW for "research", for once i got home before 5 pm, all rejoice!!! tomorrow is an even slacker day, no gp, all lectures(sleeptime...zzz) + rockclimbing :) + pe! isn't it a wonderful day? haha

hmm...must set a goal for meself, i aim to climb both overhangs tomorrow! haha, gotta train extra hard in order to challenge tj, haha, hope they ain't reading this, haha, tata, gotta go now!

2006-04-11T06:22:00.000-07:00

2006-04-07T06:52:00.000-07:00

hmm...was wondering if i should ask her if she is attached or not...both of us remained quiet when the group discussed how to ask a person if he or she is attached or not came up...dunno what that means...but then again, even if i asked, and the response is positive, there's no possibility that i am able to squeeze her into my already hectic life...haiz....

i feel like taking the back seat in my life now and let whatever life has to offer me guide me...afterall, its such a strain to drive on...i can see why people say that life is a difficult journey, with all the restraints on us, why can't life be simpler as we grow up? ignorance is bliss, i agree with that totally, if only i could turn back time

2006-04-05T08:36:00.000-07:00

4 days since i last blogged...lotsa things to say and reflect on...sadly i have no time, haiz...its confusing that we are drawing together more and more despite my efforts to keep us apart...how can you tell the intentions of someone? i need to know...unless i ask =x which is quite impossible...she looks so sad these few days, wonder what's bothering her...hmm...but luckily she maintains her sense of humour haha...i want to have something going on with her, but then again i don't want to...haha, get the dilema i'm facing? nvm if you don't, i don't understand myself too...so i'm just cramming my life full of activities, hoping that i just drop dead when i get home, then i ain't gotta think anymore....

mann, i love rock-climbing, haha, see my nice shoes!!!! 119 bucks hokay, too bad the orange shoes don't fit my large feet boohoo, haha

AND LOOK AT THE AMAZING "PLAYGROUND" AT YISHUN SAFRA!!!!! its so freaking nice la, 2 stories of pure boldering, complete with aircon, exit signs (haha), bouldering walls, mats, people and cameras, its freaking nice, wish i could stay there, hahaha ,my future home is gonna be something like that hahahahahaha (i wish)

if you want to find passionate people i recommend that you go to climbasia, almost all the staff there have their life revolving around the rockwall, mann, their passion is amazing, i bet they made a lot of sacrifices....time, money, blood and relationships...but at the end of the day, they may be poor, but they are the happiest people in the world, and i take my hat off to them, pure respect.

2006-04-01T07:15:00.000-08:00

today we all rejoiced and wept as the letters which contained our invitation to become provisional instructors were given to us...sadly some of us did not fufil the expectations of the teachers....which i think is utter rubbish. the teachers ain't with us throughout the entire OLC, and they don't know us that well, how can they pass judgement on them like that....its so unfair.

"Good judgment comes from experience, and often experience comes from bad judgment." -Rita Mae Brown the teachers did not realli experience what we had went through as whirlwind and should not pass their judgement like thatm its just so unfair...i know i am saying this a lot of times, but yea, its liddat

jts was quite fun, with all the crap and all bring traded during it, didn't have much to eat, haha as seen from the pics bread was our main course hahahaa with lotsa lotsa butter!!!

2006-03-31T04:28:00.000-08:00

mann, being icy realli is not working, thought that the icy feeling was mutual, but somehow either fate or the person up there has other plans for me, making us stuck together....feel like pulling the distance apart but it seems impossible...

tomorrow is the tea party that most of us have been waiting for, on april fool's dae somemore, bet that they would organise something nasty for us, telling us to go in PT kit somemore...

i don't know why but lord help me, i utterly dislike SJI people whom i have met or known, or "Josephians"...much more than i dislike the St Pat's people, some of whom are pretty nice but SJI people realli realli annoy me...i shouldn't be saying this, but they are realli arrogant people who think too highly of themseleves. maybe its the school culture or something, but they can open their eyes bigger and see that there are alot of people out there who are better in the things that they can do...so all i have to say is that they suck big time

2006-03-30T05:37:00.000-08:00

guess wad, today wasn't such a good dae..hmm....somehow the icy thing just does not work out, can't help it if the other person has a warm personality. somehow it realli melts me...i need solitude now to think things over.

makeup lecture today was so boring, eyelids felt like a ton or rather 2, dozed off for 30 mins during the econs lecture right in front of the lecturer, amazingly was not told off or something. maybe she was bored herself, yawn....

weather suits my mood today, grey, overcast and all, makes you feel so depressed, but it gets you thinking critically, wonder how can someone be totally devoid of feelings, its quite impossible rite...

was dammn outraged today, i thought that i saw someone trying to take advantage of a vj gal on bus todae, he purposely edged towards her.....was so freaking obvious, wanted to shout at him and all, but luckily this old woman placed herself in between the gal and that....maybe its divine intervention, but like i said, lucky it happened

results of odac coming out on sat, feeling a little nervous now, what if i don't get in...can't even imagine, but i wun go like jump down or something...mann...running out of money liaoz, need like 80 bucks by tmrw, not including 120 for climbing shoes....but i guess passion requires money(though its not mine) haha

feel so slack and tired, dun want to touch my books or notes, studying ain't feeling like a drag animore, actualy feels quite enjoyable and all, maybe i am showing the first signs of being a mugger...arrgh, i dun wan :'(

wishing upon a star realli helps i guess, that's how i got into tj, hahahahaha =) but the sky's cloudy tonite, ain't got a chance to wish...but here's wishing all presdential candidates for SC good luck !!! look at the candidate above serving the sch!!!

2006-03-29T04:34:00.000-08:00

this has been a great day, i got into rockclimbing, haha...all my desires (almost all) have been fufilled, so yea, i am satisfied for now...if only i could join multiple multiple ccas lo, odac, rockclimbing, PAWs, science research society, air rifle, taekwando......omg, that would be sososoo ideal!!!!

its weird how i came to know that i got into rockclimbing, wad in the Sterling lecture, would have stayed if it had not been so cold in the LT and all, the talk was not so boring as i had expected, didn't want to go in the first place, but thinking of it, going for it helped me know that i got in. aniwaes, feeling cold, i went out, despite the dissuading remarks of some of my frens(luckily i did not listen to them :p), went to see the soft ball match, then as was going back into the LT, i saw them rockclimbing and walked to over to check out and the guy asked me "are you climbing?". i was dammed stunned, and said "no one called me that i was in or tole me that i had training". was so dammn overjoyed tat i made it past the overhang and into the "black book" of vj rockclimbing, so yea =)

but time is always the issue, darn it, ain't got lotta free time, with playing, eating, sleeping, crapping on my agenda and yes..mugging, boring old mugging also

realli dislike people who think highly of themseleves, even if they are good, why should they be proud, rude and all...there is always someone better than them, unless they are ranked first in the world or something...but i guess that being at the top is always lonely, afterall, it shows

tension always surrounds us throughout our lives i guess, and we are only released from it in death, where eternal solitude lies i hope, unless ur grave gets moved or something...i guess that i can start writing my will, haha seriously, now that i am in rockclimbing....you never know when you might have faulty equipment and in a split second you may be a permanent stain on the floor below....so yea, nothing much to give though, and also dunno who to give it to....

is it possible tht the more you try to avoid something, the opposite just happens, i mean, its has jus been demostrated these few days, i have been passive on my side, even icy to some extent, but it just never goes my way....why must the distance be closed, to such an extent....it makes me hate and like it at the same time. this confusing set of emotions make me feel realli bad, not being able to express it and all...why must this happen....seems that i will only find peace of mind by being a hermit...dang

tension

2006-03-28T05:04:00.000-08:00

it seems like a long long time since i last posted, gathering dust i see...well, don't realli get the idea of putting up ur thoughts on a blog for everyone to see lol

aniwaez, learnt some disturbing truths todae, haha, something to do with race issues. can't realli mention it openly, or else i kena thrown in jail =x i am like just hoping that racial equality does not exist in name only and is not practised la....

hoping for a lot of things now, hoping to get into odac, hoping to get into rock climbing also, but seems that it ain't possible, wif them looking for people with quite alot of free time on their hands. told them during the interview that i would most likely drop rockclimbing if i cannot cope, so yea, must have made them strike my name off the list.....well, it would be a shame if i don't get in..but well, life is filled with disappointments, ups and downs and all those kinda things so not realli concerned about it that much..

wonder if i can join air rifle if rockclimbing dunwan me, did okay for the trials, but i pang seh the air rifle people, told them that wun consider air rifle as any of my cca choices, haha, gosh another dumb act for the meter

found a nice quote, Love is like pi - natural, irrational, and very important -lisa hoffman

2005-04-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

wah, sian, nothing to post lazi to update also, haiz, haha, sch life's borin, oni rmb that i still ahd a blog todae, HAHA....at least todae i dun hav mock, lol

2005-02-08T05:11:00.000-08:00

yay!! todae's CNY eve, rocks, got lottsa food to eat, jus dun turn into little piggie!!! Oink!!! Mann, weird character hangin outside me hm, maybe tryin to steal somethin, nvm, i hav fireworks to throw at him, lol!!! got any more ideas to chase him away? i'm welcome to ideas!!!

2004-12-29T17:36:00.000-08:00

well, christmas is over, hw still there, tons of it, wonder when will it be cleared, learnt a new phrase though, "FUBAR", go check the meaning out dun be in a hurry to spread it though. 2morrow's open house, gonna get my face painted, hopefully wun go too extreme, haha...cya

2004-12-24T18:41:00.000-08:00

Yea, tomorrow's christmas, rocks ain't it? Hol hw still there, gotta rmb to clear it though, or i'm dead, haha