~* Friday, March 31, 2006 *~
mann, being icy realli is not working, thought that the icy feeling was mutual, but somehow either fate or the person up there has other plans for me, making us stuck together....feel like pulling the distance apart but it seems impossible...
tomorrow is the tea party that most of us have been waiting for, on april fool's dae somemore, bet that they would organise something nasty for us, telling us to go in PT kit somemore...
i don't know why but lord help me, i utterly dislike SJI people whom i have met or known, or "Josephians"...much more than i dislike the St Pat's people, some of whom are pretty nice but SJI people realli realli annoy me...i shouldn't be saying this, but they are realli arrogant people who think too highly of themseleves. maybe its the school culture or something, but they can open their eyes bigger and see that there are alot of people out there who are better in the things that they can do...so all i have to say is that they suck big time
tomorrow is the tea party that most of us have been waiting for, on april fool's dae somemore, bet that they would organise something nasty for us, telling us to go in PT kit somemore...
i don't know why but lord help me, i utterly dislike SJI people whom i have met or known, or "Josephians"...much more than i dislike the St Pat's people, some of whom are pretty nice but SJI people realli realli annoy me...i shouldn't be saying this, but they are realli arrogant people who think too highly of themseleves. maybe its the school culture or something, but they can open their eyes bigger and see that there are alot of people out there who are better in the things that they can do...so all i have to say is that they suck big time
~* Thursday, March 30, 2006 *~
guess wad, today wasn't such a good dae..hmm....somehow the icy thing just does not work out, can't help it if the other person has a warm personality. somehow it realli melts me...i need solitude now to think things over.
makeup lecture today was so boring, eyelids felt like a ton or rather 2, dozed off for 30 mins during the econs lecture right in front of the lecturer, amazingly was not told off or something. maybe she was bored herself, yawn....
weather suits my mood today, grey, overcast and all, makes you feel so depressed, but it gets you thinking critically, wonder how can someone be totally devoid of feelings, its quite impossible rite...
was dammn outraged today, i thought that i saw someone trying to take advantage of a vj gal on bus todae, he purposely edged towards her.....was so freaking obvious, wanted to shout at him and all, but luckily this old woman placed herself in between the gal and that....maybe its divine intervention, but like i said, lucky it happened
results of odac coming out on sat, feeling a little nervous now, what if i don't get in...can't even imagine, but i wun go like jump down or something...mann...running out of money liaoz, need like 80 bucks by tmrw, not including 120 for climbing shoes....but i guess passion requires money(though its not mine) haha
feel so slack and tired, dun want to touch my books or notes, studying ain't feeling like a drag animore, actualy feels quite enjoyable and all, maybe i am showing the first signs of being a mugger...arrgh, i dun wan :'(
wishing upon a star realli helps i guess, that's how i got into tj, hahahahaha =) but the sky's cloudy tonite, ain't got a chance to wish...but here's wishing all presdential candidates for SC good luck !!! look at the candidate above serving the sch!!!
~* Wednesday, March 29, 2006 *~
this has been a great day, i got into rockclimbing, haha...all my desires (almost all) have been fufilled, so yea, i am satisfied for now...if only i could join multiple multiple ccas lo, odac, rockclimbing, PAWs, science research society, air rifle, taekwando......omg, that would be sososoo ideal!!!!
its weird how i came to know that i got into rockclimbing, wad in the Sterling lecture, would have stayed if it had not been so cold in the LT and all, the talk was not so boring as i had expected, didn't want to go in the first place, but thinking of it, going for it helped me know that i got in. aniwaes, feeling cold, i went out, despite the dissuading remarks of some of my frens(luckily i did not listen to them :p), went to see the soft ball match, then as was going back into the LT, i saw them rockclimbing and walked to over to check out and the guy asked me "are you climbing?". i was dammed stunned, and said "no one called me that i was in or tole me that i had training". was so dammn overjoyed tat i made it past the overhang and into the "black book" of vj rockclimbing, so yea =)
but time is always the issue, darn it, ain't got lotta free time, with playing, eating, sleeping, crapping on my agenda and yes..mugging, boring old mugging also
realli dislike people who think highly of themseleves, even if they are good, why should they be proud, rude and all...there is always someone better than them, unless they are ranked first in the world or something...but i guess that being at the top is always lonely, afterall, it shows
tension always surrounds us throughout our lives i guess, and we are only released from it in death, where eternal solitude lies i hope, unless ur grave gets moved or something...i guess that i can start writing my will, haha seriously, now that i am in rockclimbing....you never know when you might have faulty equipment and in a split second you may be a permanent stain on the floor below....so yea, nothing much to give though, and also dunno who to give it to....
is it possible tht the more you try to avoid something, the opposite just happens, i mean, its has jus been demostrated these few days, i have been passive on my side, even icy to some extent, but it just never goes my way....why must the distance be closed, to such an extent....it makes me hate and like it at the same time. this confusing set of emotions make me feel realli bad, not being able to express it and all...why must this happen....seems that i will only find peace of mind by being a hermit...dang
its weird how i came to know that i got into rockclimbing, wad in the Sterling lecture, would have stayed if it had not been so cold in the LT and all, the talk was not so boring as i had expected, didn't want to go in the first place, but thinking of it, going for it helped me know that i got in. aniwaes, feeling cold, i went out, despite the dissuading remarks of some of my frens(luckily i did not listen to them :p), went to see the soft ball match, then as was going back into the LT, i saw them rockclimbing and walked to over to check out and the guy asked me "are you climbing?". i was dammed stunned, and said "no one called me that i was in or tole me that i had training". was so dammn overjoyed tat i made it past the overhang and into the "black book" of vj rockclimbing, so yea =)
but time is always the issue, darn it, ain't got lotta free time, with playing, eating, sleeping, crapping on my agenda and yes..mugging, boring old mugging also
realli dislike people who think highly of themseleves, even if they are good, why should they be proud, rude and all...there is always someone better than them, unless they are ranked first in the world or something...but i guess that being at the top is always lonely, afterall, it shows
tension always surrounds us throughout our lives i guess, and we are only released from it in death, where eternal solitude lies i hope, unless ur grave gets moved or something...i guess that i can start writing my will, haha seriously, now that i am in rockclimbing....you never know when you might have faulty equipment and in a split second you may be a permanent stain on the floor below....so yea, nothing much to give though, and also dunno who to give it to....
is it possible tht the more you try to avoid something, the opposite just happens, i mean, its has jus been demostrated these few days, i have been passive on my side, even icy to some extent, but it just never goes my way....why must the distance be closed, to such an extent....it makes me hate and like it at the same time. this confusing set of emotions make me feel realli bad, not being able to express it and all...why must this happen....seems that i will only find peace of mind by being a hermit...dang
~* Tuesday, March 28, 2006 *~
it seems like a long long time since i last posted, gathering dust i see...well, don't realli get the idea of putting up ur thoughts on a blog for everyone to see lol
aniwaez, learnt some disturbing truths todae, haha, something to do with race issues. can't realli mention it openly, or else i kena thrown in jail =x i am like just hoping that racial equality does not exist in name only and is not practised la....
hoping for a lot of things now, hoping to get into odac, hoping to get into rock climbing also, but seems that it ain't possible, wif them looking for people with quite alot of free time on their hands. told them during the interview that i would most likely drop rockclimbing if i cannot cope, so yea, must have made them strike my name off the list.....well, it would be a shame if i don't get in..but well, life is filled with disappointments, ups and downs and all those kinda things so not realli concerned about it that much..
wonder if i can join air rifle if rockclimbing dunwan me, did okay for the trials, but i pang seh the air rifle people, told them that wun consider air rifle as any of my cca choices, haha, gosh another dumb act for the meter
found a nice quote, Love is like pi - natural, irrational, and very important -lisa hoffman
aniwaez, learnt some disturbing truths todae, haha, something to do with race issues. can't realli mention it openly, or else i kena thrown in jail =x i am like just hoping that racial equality does not exist in name only and is not practised la....
hoping for a lot of things now, hoping to get into odac, hoping to get into rock climbing also, but seems that it ain't possible, wif them looking for people with quite alot of free time on their hands. told them during the interview that i would most likely drop rockclimbing if i cannot cope, so yea, must have made them strike my name off the list.....well, it would be a shame if i don't get in..but well, life is filled with disappointments, ups and downs and all those kinda things so not realli concerned about it that much..
wonder if i can join air rifle if rockclimbing dunwan me, did okay for the trials, but i pang seh the air rifle people, told them that wun consider air rifle as any of my cca choices, haha, gosh another dumb act for the meter
found a nice quote, Love is like pi - natural, irrational, and very important -lisa hoffman