~* Wednesday, March 29, 2006 *~
this has been a great day, i got into rockclimbing, haha...all my desires (almost all) have been fufilled, so yea, i am satisfied for now...if only i could join multiple multiple ccas lo, odac, rockclimbing, PAWs, science research society, air rifle, taekwando......omg, that would be sososoo ideal!!!!
its weird how i came to know that i got into rockclimbing, wad in the Sterling lecture, would have stayed if it had not been so cold in the LT and all, the talk was not so boring as i had expected, didn't want to go in the first place, but thinking of it, going for it helped me know that i got in. aniwaes, feeling cold, i went out, despite the dissuading remarks of some of my frens(luckily i did not listen to them :p), went to see the soft ball match, then as was going back into the LT, i saw them rockclimbing and walked to over to check out and the guy asked me "are you climbing?". i was dammed stunned, and said "no one called me that i was in or tole me that i had training". was so dammn overjoyed tat i made it past the overhang and into the "black book" of vj rockclimbing, so yea =)
but time is always the issue, darn it, ain't got lotta free time, with playing, eating, sleeping, crapping on my agenda and yes..mugging, boring old mugging also
realli dislike people who think highly of themseleves, even if they are good, why should they be proud, rude and all...there is always someone better than them, unless they are ranked first in the world or something...but i guess that being at the top is always lonely, afterall, it shows
tension always surrounds us throughout our lives i guess, and we are only released from it in death, where eternal solitude lies i hope, unless ur grave gets moved or something...i guess that i can start writing my will, haha seriously, now that i am in rockclimbing....you never know when you might have faulty equipment and in a split second you may be a permanent stain on the floor below....so yea, nothing much to give though, and also dunno who to give it to....
is it possible tht the more you try to avoid something, the opposite just happens, i mean, its has jus been demostrated these few days, i have been passive on my side, even icy to some extent, but it just never goes my way....why must the distance be closed, to such an extent....it makes me hate and like it at the same time. this confusing set of emotions make me feel realli bad, not being able to express it and all...why must this happen....seems that i will only find peace of mind by being a hermit...dang
its weird how i came to know that i got into rockclimbing, wad in the Sterling lecture, would have stayed if it had not been so cold in the LT and all, the talk was not so boring as i had expected, didn't want to go in the first place, but thinking of it, going for it helped me know that i got in. aniwaes, feeling cold, i went out, despite the dissuading remarks of some of my frens(luckily i did not listen to them :p), went to see the soft ball match, then as was going back into the LT, i saw them rockclimbing and walked to over to check out and the guy asked me "are you climbing?". i was dammed stunned, and said "no one called me that i was in or tole me that i had training". was so dammn overjoyed tat i made it past the overhang and into the "black book" of vj rockclimbing, so yea =)
but time is always the issue, darn it, ain't got lotta free time, with playing, eating, sleeping, crapping on my agenda and yes..mugging, boring old mugging also
realli dislike people who think highly of themseleves, even if they are good, why should they be proud, rude and all...there is always someone better than them, unless they are ranked first in the world or something...but i guess that being at the top is always lonely, afterall, it shows
tension always surrounds us throughout our lives i guess, and we are only released from it in death, where eternal solitude lies i hope, unless ur grave gets moved or something...i guess that i can start writing my will, haha seriously, now that i am in rockclimbing....you never know when you might have faulty equipment and in a split second you may be a permanent stain on the floor below....so yea, nothing much to give though, and also dunno who to give it to....
is it possible tht the more you try to avoid something, the opposite just happens, i mean, its has jus been demostrated these few days, i have been passive on my side, even icy to some extent, but it just never goes my way....why must the distance be closed, to such an extent....it makes me hate and like it at the same time. this confusing set of emotions make me feel realli bad, not being able to express it and all...why must this happen....seems that i will only find peace of mind by being a hermit...dang